Friday, February 23, 2007

Still here, still alive (just)!

I'm fully in the realms of 'disollusioned teacher' at the moment - I knew what I was letting myself in for when I became a teacher, but I didn't expect to have to deal with quite so much *$%) as I am at the moment. Why can't teachers just be allowed to TEACH, without jumping through endless hoops? And the worst thing is, I have a constant feeling of 'only just coping'.

Having experienced another career prior to teaching, I have to say that the work I had to do then pales into insignificance compared to teaching. It's just wrong that teachers are expected to do quite so much, and are paid a pittance. I really do enjoy teaching - it's just everything else I can't deal with!

i know that most of this is because I'm working in quite a tough school which is just getting over a very problematic past - therefore the whole school is planning everything from scratch, working on things that in most schools are already in place, whilst dealing with various behaviour problems. one of my friends still says she is "loving every minute of teaching" and I think that's because she's in a nice small village primary where they have a lot of the curriculum etc 'in place'. it's nice to know that it's still possible to be 'in love' with teaching a term and a half in!

Sorry for the negative blog entry - I'll try to think of something more positive next time! For several years I've been an eternal optimist, and even though I've felt down about school lately, I'm constantly thinking about the good/exciting things in my life - my wonderful husband, beautiful baby bunny boy, and the possible adventures in our lives over the next few years...